#holy shit can i be in love with a drawing

[doodledrawsthings]

you. Oh my god, you. (Positive)

listen. Before I had internet access, all I had was 1 hour of allotted browser time, bing image search, and a single dantdm play through of a hat in time that never got finished. I googled fanart and got pretty much nothing, I googled fancomics and got pretty much nothing, but you know what I did end up finding?

your art.

from ages 11-14, my goal in life, in art, was your art. I can’t tell you how much I loved finding random screenshots of your posts, because I was always just so impressed by how clean and consistent your sketches are, how the characters always stay on model, the shape language, how you could somehow sketch a character in like 20 lines when it took me 50 to draw sans in my little spiral notebook— like! Holy shit! For years I have looked up to your art! There’s still a photos folder on my dads old huge-ass 12 inch work iPad labeled “holy crap” and filled with your art. Because it inspired me so much. It’s become an undeniable part of my artstyle, now — I still have fanart I drew way back in the day of Hattie and the rest, I didn’t even know anyone’s names because I couldn’t play the game, but you’re the reason I eventually did play the game. Your coffee shop au and different versions of the prince— one of those ieterations inspired the main character of my novel! Well, novel that I tried to write, I was 13 so it was eh, but I tried!!

I’m submitting this on-anon because I don’t want to out my age on the wide internet (I like my privacy) but. Your art has really meant a lot to me. It’s the reason I played hollow knight, and it’s the reason I kept trying to develop an art style I was happy with. You’re the reason I started scribbling comics in my notebooks. Being 13-14 was pretty much the worst two years of my life, but I had Bing image search and the occasional glimpse of your signature, and I’d be so happy every time I found a new (if crusty) three-times screenshotted jpg. You literally introduced me to the concept of polyamory and nonbinary-ness with the coffee shop au. I had no other access to that in my household, and. Yeah. It meant a lot to me.

Anyway. I’m so glad I’ve finally tracked you down (in the most non-ominous way possible) and I’m so glad you’re still active— Please never stop making art. Your art is incredible, and amazing, and also you never know who’s out there on Bing image search. Thank you for creating for as long as you have. You’re pretty much the reason I’m shooting for an art degree (Wish me luck!) so just…Thank you.

(Also I had no idea you were a professional storyboarder, which is insane because that’s what I want to be when I’m through college. Hey, maybe I’ll end up storyboarding a remake of something you’ve storyboarded! hehehe)

Hi anon!

So right off the bat, I gotta tell you that this message made me start bawling when I woke up and saw it. Like I had a full-on cry session while reading your message and lying in bed for almost an hour. I am crying as I am typing this response, on my phone, still in bed. It’s 11am and i woke up at 9. So I hope it turns out coherent.

The last two years have been. weird. I say that a lot because I wanna say “rough” but that still doesn’t feel quite right. I’m almost hyper-aware that there are so many people that have it worse than me rn, so it feels hard to even acknowledge when I’m going through anything, myself, sometimes- REGARDLESS, it’s been kind of an all-time low for my mental health. There was a point within in the last year where I just HATED drawing. I struggled to bring myself to work, I struggled to bring myself to even draw for fun. It felt like I was posting just to post, trying to keep people aware of my existence and it almost felt physically painful to force myself to sit down and do it, sometimes.

I’m getting better now, I think, but. Yknow.

It’s so easy to get caught up in the “oh I can make money off this,” “oh I can get attention off this,” “oh I can prove myself a functional person in society with this,” of it all. I forget why I actually do this, sometimes, or if I even enjoy it. And then I get messages like yours, about the kid with limited internet access looking for A Hat in Time fan art on Bing image search, and I get taken back to when I was a kid scrolling Google images and deviantart for the same thing.

I don’t mean to like. Foster some kind of parasocial thing with you or any one of my followers. There’s a reason I’m saying all this, I hope it ties up in the end.

We don’t know each other. I’m not some mysterious legendary artist, or whatever. I’m a person who gets burnt out, and jealous, and insecure. I need inspiration to function, just like you, and when I don’t have it, I get art block. But I also really like to draw fictional characters kissing and hanging out. I like coming up with comics and stories and playing out dramatic and funny scenarios in my head like I’m mashing Barbies together. And when other people tell me they enjoy the stuff I put out when I do this, it makes me really, really, really happy.

I think I needed to read your message, probably. With the state of… Everything… Right now, especially recently, I feel like a lot of artists are also struggling with a sense of purpose, pride, and reason as the world makes it harder and harder to even BE an artist, these days. And when I read this message it was like Anton Ego at the end of Ratatouille, I got taken back to when I was a kid looking at my favorite artists and studying their style and striving to be better and better at it over years of my life. Not just because I wanted a job for it or cuz I wanted to be a famous Disney animator or whatever, but because it was fun and I just liked doing it.

Thank you, SO much. I say this in the most genuine and earnest way I possibly can possibly express. I wish you luck on your own path in art and art school. And if you decide that animation industry is your thing, then I wish you the best in that endeavor, as well. I think I will keep making art for a long time.

Peace and love on the planet earth ✌️✌️✌️

[phinphang000]

Idk if cryotocism knows how much I LOVE their art holy SHIT I love the way you draw Bart and Thaddeus and just THEIR FACES! THEY LOOK SO GOOD! SO MUCH EXPRESSION! SO MUCH CHARACTER! It's so fucking NICE seeing my blorbo get drawn so damn well and so silly

So so silly I love them and you make me love them more idk how that's possible

Also just, KON! Look at him! He's such a Guy! Look at that cleavage! Cleavage on men is such a, yes, yesyesyesyesy it's not even just a horny thing it's just so NICE

If I could physically eat your art I would and idk if even the tangiblity can stop me cause oh man it looks so tasty-

(Sorry I keep all your art under my frequency au tag on my blog I hope that's not bad-)

the more i think about this au the sillier it gets

[eldritch-spouse]

Listen. I’m not into pain (i often take Markiplier’s approach: “I’m not a masochist, I just wanna see how much i can take.”) but. But!

Vinnel. My god. Something about the jestussy is so enticing to me.

I dont know, maybe its because ive been on a Balatro streak for the past month, but everything about vinnel is SEXY AS FUCK. Holy shit

(Speaking of Balatro, I’ve been working on making Vinnel into a joker card for the game, ive got the drawing mostly done i just have to think of the effects)

Anyway. Just wanted to tell you that i personally think vinnel is a slam-dunk character and I’d do anything for him (maybe not of my own accord, knowing him, but still)

I'm so embarrassed to admit I never learned to play Poker... Black Jack I can kind of get into, I just know zero about Poker. Balatro clips often just confuse me more, lmao. I'm glad you like Vinnel, thenk you!!

HEY. HEY. SHOW ME THE VINNEL CARD. PLEASE.

It doth grip rather foolishly, unfortunately Vinnie is just painful to love.

I sketched a super lazy random card for Vinnel because the concept sounded interesting. It's not a Balatro card because, again, I've never played it. If I had more time on my hands I'd make a more dynamic pose.

[ccrisntok]

Good thing.

(spoilers for most recent drdt ep)

[territorial-utopia]

Huzzah! It's birthday time! I'm slowly accumulating more and more things I like (latest additions this vest I made and a travel typewriter! Still need to fix the latter one though)

Sure has been a year.

[deoidesign]

Quick re-do of a 4 year old piece

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

[nonbinarylesbianherb]

don’t think you understand just how feral I get whenever i see butch wolverine fanart like im gnawing at the bars of my cage right now

[pondhue]

gonna need the world's greatest minds to come together and figure out how and why these 2 panels in "Rick and Morty go to Hell" are as funny as they are

[hplonesomeart]

Hey. Sorry about the inactivity, but pretty sure no one cared that much anyways lol. Been a looooong time since I kept that distant from Tumblr…at least now I know I’m able to survive without checking posts every day/being chronically online! I’ve got an intense love-hate relationship with this lifestyle I’ve dug myself into. Think I’m getting a little bit better with the balance even if school isn’t really giving me an option. Got a load of work I need to keep catching up on if I don’t want to disappoint my professors. We’ll survive somehow. Here take a quick batch of Puzzle doodles k bye

[eorzeas-okayest-smn]

garuda, lady of the vortex !

[cj-isout]

i hate this bugeyed nerd (jeremty)

[pocketpen]

The gods put these two in separate universes because they knew they'd be unstoppable as besties

[jadelemonadee]

king thayne thing i did that i kinda don’t like how it came out but fuck it we ball 🤗

+ the doodle is how i imagine him when he did this (except maybe he’d be foaming at the mouth a bit ❤️/hj)

[sanjipussyindulgence]

dr. stone: humans were born to create, and every scientific discovery we've made has been for the sake of community.

me, thru tears: ur so fucking right.

[raptureshots]

Atlas n Frank...

theyre best buddies (TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!)

funky lil alt under the cut :-)

i hate these guys so much they're literally all i fucking think abt on a daily basis its horrible /silly

(i could go. on and on abt them in this. au honestly . the whole au IS technically abt them anyways sooo)